For years, I thought this blog was long gone. My email changed, and I couldn't get in! Well, I figured out how to get back in, so here I am, some six years after my last post. The world has changed so much, and I am going to hold myself back from having ChatGPT rewrite this for me, no matter how badly I want to!
I just wanted to post and say...I AM STILL ALIVE! If you had told me I would be typing this 14 years, 7 months, and 9 days ago, I wouldn't have believed you! I thought for sure this thing would have killed me by now. But, here I am and I would say better off than I was back then, even being 14 years older! Those RULES still apply! They have never gone anywhere and are a part of my everyday. So, while you read this....go get some water and for God's sake, sit up straight, shoulders back, and get that head over your shoulders. You will thank me later!
First off, how have you been? I hope life is going great! I hope you are healthy and living your best life! I've missed you :)
For me, I have been doing great as well. Remember that wonderful husband that I had back then? Well, since then, I realized I would be better off without him holding me back. 19 years of marriage and poof...gone. This is a good thing...don't be sorry for me! I also moved away from Wilmington (away from the ex) and moved to Florida to be near my twins and grandbabies.
I now have 5 of the most incredible grandkids anyone can have!! I MADE IT! I was so scared I would never meet them, but I did, and now I see them all the time. They are just 15 minutes away! Life has blessed me in so many ways. I can honestly say, I see myself at their weddings now. I know I have a future and know I am going to be okay. If I'm not, I will live the best life I can until the end comes.
I've got SO much to say here, but don't want this to be so long no one reads it, so just a few more things before I go.
For years, I lived like I was dying, believing I was dying. For years, I felt like I gave up just waiting for the end. I said it once in this blog, I decided I would no longer mourn the life that I was still living. To remind me of that, I got a tattoo of a Phoenix on the back of my neck just under the thing that changed my life forever. Now, when things are dark, I grab a mirror and look at that Phoenix to remind myself that I rose from the ashes and am alive again. I am happy, I am healthy, and I have a future. Now, I wish I had put it in a place that was easier to see LOL!
I like who I am today. I like what this thing has made me. Is it a blessing....eh.... ugh! I have to say yes, it was, as a matter of fact. Do I hate that I had to learn to be a better person such a hard way, yes. But I did, and it's all good.
Headaches... they still show up. Bad days, neck issues, double vision....all still there. Those rules saved my life. Are you still sitting up straight???? Do it!
Who knows if anyone who used to read this will see it again, but if a newer post helps someone newly diagnosed find it, I'm glad I did it.
As always, if you are going through this, I pray for you. You are strong, and you will always find strength when you don't think you have any left. Don't lie down and give up. Keep fighting. I am living proof that some stories have a happy ending.
I still haven't and never will get that surgery. I wished I could go find Dr. Oro and tell him I beat the odds. It's been a long time since he said I had 6 months to go under the knife.
Take care of yourself and God Bless!
