Here's my disclaimer....
While these awful conditions are a huge part of my life...they are not my life. There are times though that I wish I could scream out how much this all sucks sometimes. Being that I was raised a lady...I don't. But that doesn't mean I don't think it and doesn't mean I can't put it in my blog because my blog is to talk about these conditions...and it's not always happy.
How are you feeling?....
I dread this question. D R E A D it!
Every time someone asks me this there is an inner monolog in my head saying
.....do I tell the truth?
I feel like crap today...my head feels like a 20 pound bowling ball and I would give anything to just go rest it on something so I don't have to hold the darn thing up anymore.
OR
.....do I lie?
I feel great! :) ........It's easier and honestly are they really interested in knowing how utterly crappy I feel....? probably not. Does it make everyone happier and less stressed when I say I feel fine?
Absolutely....
Am I a good lair? Nope... I don't think I fool anyone when I lie...but sometimes I do anyway.
Do I still want people to ask?
yes.
But only if you are truly interested because I just may decide to tell the truth...and there are days that I want nothing more than to tell someone how I feel about all this....it's not something many would want to hear and it's something even fewer would be able to understand.
But it would be awfully therapeutic to scream how much Chiari and Basilar invagination sucks just once....
